Hate & Love

I've never really hated anyone before. The concept seemed very much useless to me. But then it slowly slithered into my world. It snuck covertly into my heart and made me say and think and wish for things I had never even imagined.

It was hard to accept at first, but now I acknowledge it now. I have learned how to hate. And I prayed to God to give me back all my chants for forgiveness, my unselfish pleads from those sleepless nights. Because you don't deserve forgiveness. You deserve pain. I want you to suffer.

Hate, however, has not made me its slave. While forgiveness cannot be sought from me, I have learnt to simply take off all the contaminated scars on my heart. God was generous to me- He sent me a miracle in the form of a person, a person who has taught me how to love. This feeling... I had never felt before. I feel like I can take a leap of faith; I feel like I can jump into the train tracks without a second thought. If I say that I have been in love before, I must be contradicting myself.

What a wonderful feeling love is! 

But there is no love without hate.

And while I will not seek revenge myself, I will let Karma do the job for me.

You don't even deserve a first thought from me, let alone a second.

-End-

~Faty

P.S. I agree- do remove. He's suicide, trust me.