Faty's Back, Tell a Friend!

Hey, watup… It’s Faty. The real thing! It’s been so long since I wrote here… I was being lazy, procrastinating, and didn’t have a lot to write about… Well I did but not too much!

Actually yeah it was too much… which made me feel even lazier!

Anyway.

Umm… what to say… I’ve been doing fine. Sure, my life is so bipolar… One day I’m the happiest person alive, the evening of the same day I go emo, the next day I go through withdrawal syndromes, the next day I smile like an idiot and dance all day while singing songs with my horrible voice in order to fight away the depression, the same night I’m happy again, at midnight I’m so depressed I try to hurt myself, the next morning I skip breakfast because I’m too upset, and just then I get a phone call and I’m freakishly happy again.

Wow that was looooong!

… Boh, I dunno… I guess that no matter what happens everything always turns out right. So why do I get so depressed sometimes? Because if there’s something that I HATE… it’s WAITING. I hate WAITING… for a happy occasion, for a funeral, for somebody to call me, for a notice, a signal… anything!

“Waiting for the end to come, wishing I had strength to stand… This is not what I had planned… It’s out of my control.

Flying at the speed of light, thoughts are spinning in my head… So many things were left unsaid… It’s hard to let you go.

I know what it takes to move on… I know how it feels to lie. All I wanna do is trade this life for something new, holding onto what I haven’t got.”

So like, these are lyrics from Waiting for the End by Linkin Park. Gawdd I simply love this song. Instead of writing a whole biography of what’s been happenng to me, I could just summarize it in one song!

Uh, anyway… I don’t have anything to tell you that would genuinely interest you except this. A lot has happened in my life… Let’s just say I’m happy for now. I’m waiting for what’s to come in the end, but weirdly enough I’m not too impatient. You shoudn’t be either.

Cya!

~You are now officially spider kissed :*

Guess who this is

Its not faria, its not Farias Jinn, its not fatima... But its fatimas Jinn. How can u confirm that? Well, instead of writing "Faty" im writing her full name. Duh.

So fatima... Uh lets call her faty cuz that takes less effort.
Anyway, faty came home today with a strange look on her face. Then she started to think. But then she thought so hard that her head started to hurt. And thats when i come n.

"why the fuck is your head hurting? Its pissing me off!"

and when i got to listen to all the fumbled up thoughts coming out of her brain like nuclear radiation... I was even more pissed. But this time she had given me the opportunity to form an opinion. Which means that her head - whch is also my head - is even more explosive than before!

Im sorry to say this but in order to get this burning stuff out of our head, body, and heart I'll have to write it down here. I dont care if anybody reads it... All i want is to just relax for one moment.

Here are my thoughts... Faty is too beaten up to write hers.

Fuck you fatima. Ur an idiot. Ur a coward. U think ur so smart, smarter than an of ur friends, but ur wrong. U cant be perfect! Ur still just a child. U make decisins in a matter of seconds and then change it right after, again and again? What the fuck is wrong with you?!? What are you trying to prove? All u know how to do is hurt others.... And hurt urself in the process. U cant live in a perfect world. Life is not made of rules made by u. Just...

just grow the fuck up.

... Im sorry.

Sharing is Caring

Aloha! This is Fary and i would like to share with you an Italian song that i find very nice! It's called L'applauso del Cielo, which translates to The applause from  Heaven or smthin.

I hope you liked it!

Can You Keep A Secret? not that i care...

You guessed it! Im gonna tell you a secret that not even Faty, my BF and BC, knows about:


I've been writing songs for quite a while. I think i started when i was 11 or 12 years old. Writing songs is one of my hobbies and pass times. Today i'm gonna share with you guys a part of one of my stupidest songs called 'Adventure'. This part is the part which i like, the rest is bull****:

There's always gonna be time to do your own things,

but just for now relax and be ready to spread your wings.

Don't waste your time,

Precious, your and mine.

Remember it as a fine,

As a sentence as a line.

Limited, don't waste like wine.

Precious, keep it fine.

Dangerous, don't kill your time.

Wasting it, just makes you a swine. (By 'swine' i meant 'loser')

 That's it. And Faty, remember when one night in my room i was writing something in my notebook, you asked me what it was and i replied 'nothing' ? Then i hid it away and you got upset at me for not telling you? I was actually writing a song. Not this one, a much better one. Hehe...

 Anyways, that's it from me today! Spider-kisses!

From Fary! 

Good Luck My Friend

by Sonohra

I wasted time here
Who can defend us?
We will be the wind, don't stop us
Hey friend help yourself
You can no longer extinguish yourself
Let's write the dreams, let's leave, free

I'll think of you (I'll miss you)
I'll look for you from now
I'll wait for you (Will you cry for me?)
I'lll still love you

Don't ever lose the love that you are
The strength that you have never had, never
Our love... The love that you can feel
Good luck my friend

Hey girl greet me
I can't deceive you
The horizons are limitless

I'll think of you (I'll miss you)

I'll look for you from now

I'll wait for you (Will you cry for me?)

I'lll still love you

Don't ever lose the love that you are

The strength that you have never had, never

Our love... The love that you can feel

Good luck my friend

Good luck my friend

I'll leave you an alibi
I can't give up
We will do the wind, don't stop us

Don't ever lose the love that you are
The strength that have never had, never
Our love... The love that you can feel
Good luck my friend
Good luck my friend

spider.kiss-

because.kissing.spiders.is.awesome.

Words of Wisdom #3: The Future Story

Here be the last chapter.

The Wise Words of Master Yen Sid

"The Future Story"

/ Will the day come when this battle, born of confusion will end/

/ Is it different things to different people/

/ Can the reality be that which is hidden/

/ The reason is mere existence, still, memories can be believed /

/ Be not afraid /

/ Entrust your body to the soothing waves of your memories /

/ By and by your fleeting rest will be over /

/ And everything will begin /

Spider kiss-

because.kissing.spiders.is.awesome.<3.

xoxoxoxoxoSxoxoxoxoxo

Uhh okay what a weird title! Ya'll probably thinking how much sugar I ate today... I had none! Wait, no... I had very sweet dates... and coconut...


Anyway Faty here.


A friend told me they liked my style of writing and I was, to say the least, thrilled! I love hearing my writing is good. Because I think the pen is mightier than the sword... Well, nowadays that saying is more like: "The keyboard is mightier than the gun!"


Today I hung out with mentioned friend and kissed a goat! Bwahahaha I'm kidding. Actually I just hugged it.

So cute!

By the lakeside there were loads of goats, old ones, young ones... As Ramadan is progressing Eid is coming nearer, so people are quickly getting their goats for, uhm, sacrificing... umm... such a dark theme if you think about how CUTE these goats look...

... Nuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!! That's so cruel! T____T I'd rather be a vegetarian! I'm going, I'm leavin'! Never coming back again! Sayonara goat-hating world!

Nah just kidding. I personally don't like goat meat much, but it's better than cow meat! Why am I talking about meat?

What was the subject of this post again? (Looks up and reads the title) Owww. Eww.

You know what, nevermind. Hope you enjoyed my senseless rumble.

Goat kisses-

because.kissing.goats.is.awesome!

Word of Wisdom #2: Interlude

The Wise Words of Master Yen Sid

"Interlude"

/ A long dream /

/ A sad farewell, hanging in the air in that ‘world between’ /

/ What is reality? What is illusion/

/ The path chosen by the young boy leads to his memories /

/ When caught in the stream of days and nights going past, gaze anew at your steps...

/ For there, all confusion will end.

Spider kiss-

because.kissing.spiders.is.awesome.<3.

Words of Wisdom #1 - Original version

hello. just here to tell u that the "Words of Wisdom" thingy that fari copied from my notebook is actually the translation of the italian version. the real English version (directly translated from the orginal japanese version) goes like this.

The Wise Words of Master Yen Sid

"The Beginning"

/ Each journey gives rise to chance encounters /

/ And each encounter brings forth a farewell /

/ When a farewell leads to a journey, the world’s open their hearts /

/ Those chosen by the light, or ensnared in darkness /

/ Friends who share the same bonds, though their paths may differ /

/ When you doubt the path trod thus far/

/ When the hand held to you is lost/

/ Gaze anew at the heart that once was. For all answers are within. /

spider kisses-

because.kissing.spiders.is.awesome.

A very disturbing dream. Somebody give me an Interpretation.

Did you realize that whenever you are really tired and need to sleep, like, when you're so sleepy that you can't keep yourself awake, you dream things that are usually more disturbing than usual? Like nightmares. Well, I don't have nightmares, but the dreams I dream when I'm super sleepy and/or tired are ALMOST as bad.


As you may or may not know, I came from Europe to Asia only a few days ago. So i'm having problems with fixing my schedule. I take a 5-hours long nap from 1 pm - 6 pm, stay awake almost all night, etc. I'm also having problems with my diet and recently feel very tired.


Today, when I went to sleep at around 1.30 pm, my dream began quite nicely. I dreamt that Billy Joe (yes, GREEN DAY'S lead vocalist BILLY JOE ARMSTRONG!) called me in my phone. He lived in a deserted island and was calling me to just say hi, how are ya, etc... like, totally casual. like, WOW!




But that was the only highlight.


Later on I went to that island and met the doctor who circumcised my bros and my cozes. He was like: "you've sinned a lot. so you have to ask me for forgiveness." I was like, wth? Astaghfirullah! Ain't I supposed to be doing that to God? Then Fari's mom came (my aunt) and said: "No! You have to ask for forgiveness to a Jinn!" (That's a spirit who are just like humans except they have super powers, are stronger, but dumber.) "That's what I did!" Okaaaaaaaaay... Astaghfirullah again...


And then I woke up, still half sleepy, and realized that Husen Mama (my uncle) was in my room and my mom was outside, bang-uhm knocking on my door. Husen Mama was making fun of her while she was saying something about my friend (Asif) waiting for me downstairs and that he said something about a lake. I instantly remembered that I had romised him to donate some money to a nursing home for disabled people and that I would give him the donation near the lake. I started to get up but... I couldn't! I was literally paralyzed! I was trying my hardest to move... but I only managed to raise my right arm! Mom continued bang-knocking, and Husen Mama kept laughing at her.


And after a while of that I woke up.


... Yeah, I said that I woke up earlier, but that "waking up" was actually part of the dream. huh. And I noticed that there was no Husen Mama. I thought I could hear a faint bang-knocking, so I got up (oh so slowly), put on my glasses, opened the door and exclaimed "What?!"


... but no Mom was there standing behind the door. Well, actually she was there, but she wasnt behind the door. she was sitting on the floor watching TV. She looked at me weird for a second and went back to mind her own business.


Umm... okay, so that was weird... well I was weird. I went back to sleep and the next time I woke up I thought I heard a female voice behind me saying something softly, like "What is it..?" I was so shocked but irritated that I didnt look behind me (still on my bed, i was lying on my side) and went back to sleep.


Umm... that's it.


Now, there are some points to consider. It might have been a Jinn! Cause if it werent, why would I dream of somebody telling me to virtually "worship" one? astaghfirullah (i love saying that... my cousin Sam knows why :3) But then again, that dream made me wake up. Somebody, my mom, was calling me in the dream. That's what made me wake up. Just in time for the afternoon prayer! So was it God?


Okay so i may sound religious here. Well, gguess what, I am religious. But that doesnt mean I have a boring life. But back to the topic...


You know the part where I was paralyzed? It had happened before as well. Like, 5 or 6 times. I would be parayzed in a dream-like state, and then usually I would recite some holy verses and everything would go normal again and I would wake up wondering if it was a dream, a Jinn, or I simply went nuts for a while.


Also, the girly voice behind me creeped me out! WHAT THE HECK WAS THAT!?

Boh. I;dd rather not talk about it anymore.


Oh, and one more part of the first dream I forgot to mention. Somebody (in the dream!) had died! It was an elderly English woman. When she died, and my aunt I think was giving some speech, my cousins started crying. Noman started crying like a little baby... As for me, I didn't even KNOW who the heck that woman was! So I pretended I was sad too but I didn't cry. Then Noman hovered over my head (wth???!), his face totally wet with tears, and screamed at me "WHY AREN'T YOU CRYING?! YOU SELFISH GIRL!" I was like "Because I'm not an emotional idiot like you!" and my autn i think told me that it's better that I go out of the room. And noman was still cyring, and crying, and crying...


... I'd like to take this opprtunity to ask my cozes: did somone die?? O__O""


Umm, k, bye now.


P.S. I don't even know If I should post this, but... here goes:


... because.kissing.spider.is.awesome...?...